Mahal kong Bam,
Hay nako.. meron ka rin pala bolera side!!! hehehe... lalang.. kanina things were turning for the worse i mean the situation got really bad.. u were crying na nga e....
but it turned out way better than i expected.. i knew we were gonna fix it.. lahat naman naayos natin.. but im glad na you have been opening up a lot lately.. especially ur letter to me which really got me thinking that you are showing signs of improvement with keeping things inside db...
lalng we drove around going to lake merced, parking at westlake (tapos nilambing kita hehhe) yihee.. gusto niya ako makasama everyday :p... going around pacifica.. driving around talking.. tambay outside ur apt.. talking about things.. dang... kinikilig ako.. hehe..
anyhoo, without further ado... ur letter to me.. mwah
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This is my first time to write you a letter. I just wanted it to express right at this moment. I can’t even talk to you coz you’re with your friends. Even we talk, I don’t think so I could tell everything. I’m hurt, and I’m crying. I don’t want to feel this way every time we have a fight; I don’t want to cry. At this moment I want you to get out of my life coz I know nasasaktan na namn ako. Gusto ko na lang every time we have a fight, late ako umuwi at go to bed right away. I don’t want to think of you. I don’t want to feel that you’re part of me. Honestly, I want to get the life that I had before I started seeing you. I didn’t have a bf, but I didn’t cry as much as I do now. Pero mahal kita. Mahal na mahal kita.
Akala ko we were okay after we spent our time together last wk. That wk, ung kasiyahan ko sobra2. I kept on texting my friend in pi how I felt on those days that we were together. Feeling ko nabuhay ung relationship natin. After how many days na d kita nakasama, nasad na naman ako kaya nagiging grouchy ako sau just like last night. I am feeling that way coz every time I’m missing you, I’m not expressing it. It’s not wrong to say, “beb, daan ka naman sa bahay gusto kitang makita.” Pero d ko nasasabi kaya in the end nasasaktan ako pag d kita nakikita. Ang gusto ko lang naman e makita ka araw-araw. D ako nasasawa sau. Hnd ko naman hinihingi na we will spend time together the whole day. Just by seeing you can complete my day. Honestly, every time you get off from work I always expect that you will pass by at home. I am expecting this coz I know I would do the same thing. Kaya I feel ako lang ata ang nakakamis sau kaya nasasaktan na naman ako.
Last night, I don’t know what happened to you. Naging big deal ang d dapat maging big deal. Nabadtrip ako sau nung sinabi mo na manonood ka ng pacquiao at tito martin’s house na d pwede magdala ng kasama coz nakakahiya. I was expecting to watch it with you. Kaya k JEM ako pumunta to watch. Nawala na sana tong issue na to e when nagpalate ka nina sa work just to be with me sa dentist even for just 2 minutes or less. Natouch ako dun sobra! This afternoon, you kept on asking me kung punta talaga ako k jem. I insisted. Jem comforted me last night. Nag-oo na ko sa kanya. Then, u texted me na gusto mo kong makasama manood. Natuwa ako at the same time nainis coz I had other plans. I made other plans coz u didn’t include me on your plans beforehand. Nasaktan na naman ako. Instead of just staying at home naisip ko na gumawa ng ibang plano na d ka rin kasama. I wanted to watch it with you pero I didn’t want to cancel it with jem. Still, tinetext parin kita tinawagan pa nga kita e. I don’t know. D ko na alam. Naiinis ako. Tonight, im expecting to see you na naman coz I know nasa taas ka lang pero matutulog na ko. Hurt na naman ako! I’m so stupid! Why do I feel this way? I don’t know kaya sometimes I seek the attention that I dont get from you sa ibang tao. I don’t know. Gusto ko na lang bayaan hanggang sa kung ano ang mangyari. Bahala na cguro!! Pagod na ko sa kakaisip sau. Anyway, I have to end this coz I didn’t get a good sleep last night. I couldn’t sleep just by thinking of you. Gosh you’re killing me. I just hope I can get a nice sleep tonight and hoping you wont cross my mind as I close my eyes. Good night!! ====================================================================nakakainlove eto e hehe.. lalang.. thanks beb i love you mwah..p.s. corny joke of the night... BAM: uwi na nga tayo sayang yung gas mo
BART: okay lang yan noh.. aanhin mo ang gas kung walang pagmamahal
BAM: bumanat ka na naman
BART: totoo naman so what kung punung puno ng gas.. then thinks for a moment.. oo nga kaya umuutut ako at nagbuburp.. puro gas nga ako.. mahal kita e..
nyaaay!!! wehehe corny!!!
lalng.. tulog na ako.. mmmwah.. nytie...
XOXOkissXOXO xoKISSxo xoHUGxo XOhugXO
bart.
